What is Gratitude anyway? Well, after Monday’s meditation group, this word has changed for me. I am a giver at times, and at times a taker. But to be in gratitude feels more like a state of being connected to Spirit.
During the meditation that Lidia led, she asked us to choose an image that we hold dear to our hearts, and a picture I had seen hours before class jumped at me. My sweet daughter as she laid on my chest days after being born. We were both asleep basking in the comfort of our heartbeats & the familiarity of our rhythms. So sweet.
But, these last few months have been trying with her. The sweet days seems so far gone, and yet I had this longing to experience ease with her, and her with me.
So, Divinely timed, Gratitude invited me to see her sweetness in that picture. So, I decided I was going to hold it dear to my heart. Then Lidia asked us to share this image with the world. At that point, I felt as if my heart was exploding with love, and I had a real excitement about spreading not just the image, but all the feelings, hopes, sense of connection, bond, mother-daughter healing that accompanies this relationship. I felt abundant and so, offering this gift to the world, felt expansive.
To be honest, I don’t know what else we did in the meditation, but I remember coming out of it KNOWING what it feels like in my body to be IN GRATITUDE.
For me it is when I feel so full & sharing of this fullness is the natural next step. Giving of myself simply because it is born within me.
One other thing that really stuck with me was to CHECK IN constantly to feel if giving is in alignment in each moment. It sure brings up a lot around Mothering. And the questions of : When is giving feeling more like a should, and when is it really Gratitude. And the difference in vibration between the two.
Something to explore.